Life is like a box of chocolates!

"Life is like a box of chocolates you never know what your gonna get." This statement is so very true, and how I hate it!!!!! (Well sometimes) I am one of those people that really don't like not knowing what the future holds. The world is a scary place and sadly it is just going to get worse before it gets better. This past month has been a challenge. Not going to lie it has been tough and the word "WHY?" has run across my mouth and my mind more now then I think it ever has before. When I personally am faced with a trial not only do I find comfort in praying to my Heavenly Father, but I find tremendous comfort through others. Whether it be reading a blog or reading stories and experiences others have gone through on lds.org it always seems that in some way I will find an answer to my prayers there.
Trials are an interesting thing. They affect everyone differently some take it as it is and just move forward, some dwell and dwell and dwell on it knowing full well that nothing can be fixed by doing nothing, but at the time that is all they can bring themselves to do, some dwell on it for a minute then quickly try to find a solution, and others just think of it sometimes as a blessing and try to see the good instead of focusing on the bad. I have to first thank the Sullengers and their blog. They lost a child and she openly discusses her bad days, and how she made it through and makes it through when she feels completely lost. I have to say I don't know how I would make it if I couldn't hug, and smooch on Karston and Jayden EVERY day.
The other blog I just love I am sure a lot of you read on a daily basis in the Nie Nie blog. She was in a plane crash and about 80% of her body was burned. She tells of her struggles, but her faith in Heavenly Father just astounds me. She doesn't really dwell on her struggles even though I know how much they must affect her physically she doesn't let it affect her spiritually. So amazing.
I have not lost my child or been burned but a trial has still affected me and my family. Doug recently lost his employment. When he came home and those words came out of his mouth I have to say that it felt like a ton of bricks came and sat on my stomach. What are we going to do now is all I could say? I don't work, and well we all know how wonderful the economy is right now especially with people who are in construction. As soon as I felt like I could breath again I immediately said a prayer to my Heavenly Father asking him to help us get through this trial. After saying my prayers I felt so very calm and right then and there I knew we would be okay. Life may stink for a little while, but eventually we will be fine. I am not going to say that since then I have never questioned the feeling that I had because I have. Every day that goes by and we still hear feels like it is never going to happen, and that this may be our reality for a very long time.
Trials are interesting in that you really see just how strong your testimony and how very much faith you have in your Father in Heaven. I have to admit that I learned I was not as strong as I thought I was. I was reading an article and it was about a lady who could not understand why she couldn't bear anymore children. She talked of how she struggled with this for a very long time. She said she was reading one night in her scriptures and the scripture came across which says something like "Trust in the Lord with all thy might...." That statement is what I needed to learn. I needed to learn how to TRUST. Trust that Heavenly Father truly knows the bigger picture and that he knows what is best for me and my family. He knows the desires of our hearts, but he also knows what WE need to grow and become the individuals we need to be so that one day we can dwell in his presence again.
Now I don't know for sure if that is what I truly needed to learn, but it has been pointed out to me that that is an area in which I do need to grow in. So for now I am putting my TRUST in him. I know that he will watch out for my family, and where ever we are supposed to be he will make it possible. I truly do love my Heavenly Father. I know that he does and always will have my best interest at heart, and that we will be taken care of as long as we put our full trust in him, and continue to do the things we need to so that we can be deserving of his love and help. I know we will be fine and that one day we will look back at this experience and realize the reason as to why it had to happen, but I do have to say I wish it would come sooner than later but it is in his hands and all will be well eventually I just have to "Be not afraid and just BELIEVE!"